So, um... yea...

As expected I've already grown tired of this lifestyle change I wanted. Last Monday was like the best day (and the only day I almost completely followed through with my "healthiness"). I woke up early, got the kids ready and to their separate day cares on time. Went back home, made a smoothie, completed a Jillian Michaels 30 min video on YouTube (minus the planks, those are hard as shit!), figured out what to do to my awful braid-out [see picture], showered, got dressed, left for work on time, caught the bus from the employee lot on time (I can never seem to do that), bought a salad from Chili's (expensive, but yummy) and drank water all day!

Now ask me what happened the next day! No exercising, I might've made a smoothie (I can't remember), and a half chicken, rice and veggies meal from Sbarro. And the next day, which is my day off, I don't think I ate much all day but I did make some really good beef stir fry for the first time. I did get my haircut though and washed my car (even though it rained a couple of hours later -__-)

As you can see, I don't need to go on because honestly, I haven't exercised since last Monday and I've made smoothies but only one a day, if that... And as far as healthy eating goes, if I don't cook, I'm buying the cheapest, unhealthy meal there is when I'm at work.

Ugh, I need a personal trainer or something.

On another note, I hate my hair. There I said it. This transition is horrendous. If I was it myself, I have to straighten it or else I look worse than Buckwheat. My face wouldn't work with a short cut, I just know it, I imagine it everyday. I am just at a loss with everything about me. Smh, I think I'll just get fat and go back to damaging my hair.

Oh and when I put a pic up on Instagram of my new haircut, my ex's cousin comments "Your face is getting fat." Gee, thanks Captain Obvious. Having a second child really messed my body up. Don't get me wrong, I love my daughter to death, but she screwed up my metabolism. After having my son I was losing weight without even trying. Right before I found out I was pregnant with lil miss, I was fitting into jeans that I couldn't get one leg in just a few months before. Now, I'm still at my post-pregnancy weight, stuck at 155. I don't mind the number, I like that number. However I need to be toned and I'm just so frustrated when I feel like I'm alone in this.

I'm sorry for the rant, but I'm getting discouraged :(

Someone out there please HELP!

The new healthy ME??

The main issue I have with myself is trying to do everything at once. And I see that I am doing that now with this whole "natural" thing.

I'm starting to workout, and thinking about juicing, and no more relaxer in my hair... Too much on my plate. Mind you, I'm lazy. If I'm motivated, I'll continue with this stuff. If not I'll drop it as quickly as it began.

My workout consists of following videos on YouTube (my new best friend!) I did a lil something on Thursday and I am so sore! As of right now, I don't have a clue what my schedule will be but I hope I can stick to this. My "baby" belly needs to go asap! I like the extra 20 lbs I put on but the belly is just in the way...

My diet consists of one, maybe two, fattening meals a day. If I cook, the meal will be healthy to an extent. I am a meat and potatoes girl... Green leafy veggies are not my thing. On a normal work day, I will skip breakfast (because I'm running out the door) and grab an expensive airport meal at work. Usually I stick to a burger/fries or pizza, or Chinese (my fave is chicken and broccoli, at least there's vegetables!). I can't see myself spending extra on a salad, that I'm barely going to get full from. So unless I bring leftovers from home, my diet is going to suck. Which is why I might try juicing. I need to add spinach and kale and such to my veggie-lacking diet, and juicing seems to be the only way I can keep the yucky greens down.

Is this health kick just a phase, or is it going to be the way of life for me? I'll let you guys know in a few days, lol ;)

Addicted to natural (Farewell to the creamy crack)

So its been a minute since I've written last and not much has gone on since I last wrote. Except for the fact that I am obsessed with hair now! I'm googling hairstyles, cuts and colors... Hair care regimens and researching products... Still watching tutorials on YouTube (and failing miserably at following them)... Staying up till the wee hours washing my hair because I just can't go to sleep thinking about it...

I've gone natural crazy!

I asked others for advice on my newfound addiction. I still have no clue what I'm doing or how I'm going to go about doing this whole natural thing. I got mixed answers. Some people say cut it all off and rock a TWA (or teeny weeny afro), others say cut it all off and put in braids or a weave, while the rest say leave it alone and let it take its course. My take on those opinions:

1. I doubt I would look good with short hair, and my hair takes forever to grow.

2. I can't stand weaves, or extensions, or wigs, and have always prided myself on not wearing anything of the sort. But I have thought about it, especially recently. However I just can't bring myself to spend the money on that stuff.

3. If I leave my hair as is, there will be more breakage and thinning, and I can't take it anymore!

I'm at a loss! I wish that I had a personal stylist or something to do all my thinking for me.

So all you naturalistas out there, please give me some real advice (or come do my hair for me everyday). I need to hear from people who transitioned without the "big chop" and persevered through it all... I already know my hair journey is going to be long and rough.